Hi, Just Sitting Here

The kids went to Canon City to see Bree's dad.  I am sitting here watching UFO's on TV.  Love the history channel.

Thank you for all the of the cards.  I am so brain dead where that sort of thing is concerned.  Thank you for thinking of me.

I bought groceries, specifically, coffee creamer.  I hadn't had any for a while, and it was a real treat.  The utility bill on this place is running right around $600 a month.  We are planning on getting out just as soon as we can.  Needless to say, money is very tight.  Thank heavens I got a job.  I am working for Safeway in the Deli.  I actually like it.  Hate my boss, but it is worth putting up with her for the job.  I don't think she is going to last much longer.  She hired her son's live in girlfriend (they all live with her).  So she is dependent on the girlfriends income.  Not a good situation.  But this is a typical small town.  Nepotism runs rampant.  I love the area so much I just don't care.

To get past the cancer, the drugs and now this.  I must be a very strong person indeed.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

I have Monday and Tuesday off to take care of the kids.  I guess right now I'm just living for Monday afternoon to find out what is actually going to happen.  Open heart surgery, or stop smoking and get more exercise?  She hasn't smoked for about a week now.  Maybe this is the wake up call both she and David needed.  I am so angry at her.  Doesn't do me any good, and it is deeply buried, but if she starts to smoke again, I'm probably going to kill her (not really).

Everything is going great with all of us, (besides the above).  The kids are doing good in school.  They are going through the "new kid" syndrome.  It is harder on Erin than Donovin.   Erin is in 4H and Donovin is wrestling (his dad is ecstatic).  Erin is involved in a goat farm, where she has her own goat, and takes care of it and shows it at fair time.  She is loving it.  But, the girls are all little sh....ts.  Bree is going to take on the other mothers one of these days.  I hope I am there to see it.  She has become a wonderful mother.  Donovin went to his first tournament and won a match.  Got a meddle that he is so proud of.  No one can push him off the mat, even the bigger boys.  He is such a little fighter.  With such a huge heart.  

Bree and I pretty much take care of Caydin (probably spelled wrong).  She takes him to bed around 7, gets up with him at 2:30-3AM, feeds him, then I take over.  I'm up with him from about 3:30 on.  She and I go to bed around the same time.  It is the only way we can get enough sleep.  He still only drinks 4oz at a feeding and only sleeps around 6-7 hours at a time.  We have tried to get him to stay up later, and gradually work him into a 9-10 pm to 5am, but haven't been successful so far.  Maybe one of these days.  Because everyone has been so sick (Dave and Bree) (I'm fine, haven't caught anything yet) he finally got a cold.  All stuffy in the head.  Makes him really irritable.  He still just screams at the top of his lungs when he is mad.  He will also give you a verbal lashing when he feels it is necessary.  I've never seen a baby as verbal as he is.  He talks all the time.  We aren't sure what he is saying, but it must be important.  I guess we need to teach him that sign language they are teaching babies now.

Well, I'm going to take a nap before I go to work.  I will keep up with you now on email.  I really hope you are doing OK!  How is Leonard?  He seems like such a strong person.  But I think you are stronger.  I love you and will write more later.

Barbara  


Myrna wrote; Just don't get kidnapped by one of those UFOs. It is so good to hear from you. I thought maybe you had disappeared from the face of the earth. I am glad you are still here among us.

I am jealous that I am not closer so that I can help out. I did offer to come, it is not that far away. Remind Bree and David that I will drop everything to come if I am needed.

Jim and Julie are going to be paying those kind of heating bills, as well. It isn't as cold here so they have been only paying $400-$500 per month. They do not have natural gas where they live.

Take care and remember that I love you! M


Myrna wrote: I had emailed you several times, and it wasn't until I sat and looked at the email address I had gotten from Bree and compared it to your mail on her computer that I realized it was very wrong.  Now I have it.  I will let  you know what happens this afternoon.  Love you 2.
Barb